P90 And second thoughts.

I have been trying to get in the groove with P90 and making sure that I stay motivated etc. But to be honest, all i think about is the money I owe to P90, or the money I owe for school, or the money I owe for hospital bills, or anything!! I can't sit still and think oh my life is going so well, when it's not. I am debating on dropping P90 just because I am not feeling the support that I need from the team. I have my pit crew and they have been more supportive than anyone on my team. But the feeling that no on the team is there is really hard to keep going and stay motivated to keep trying at it. I think i have the right tools that I need in life. And P90 is really helping me learn how to use the tools in everyday life. I am so grateful for that, but for right now, i'm having a hard time financially and P90 is just making it worse by costing so much. I woke up Saturday morning in tears. I didn't want to go to work, I have so much school work to get done and I haven't done anything. I have not been motivated to even look at my p90 binder. I just am so worried about my financial stabliity. I want to be successful. and hopefully when I talk to Dana tomorrow something can be done about the cost of P90. I can't afford it, yet want to still be a part of it. For those who don't know what i'm talking about, it's called Power of 90. It is a life changing course that will help you achieve your dreams and goals in life and teach you to be proactive with your life. It is a 90 day course and I am enrolled in it, and i love it. I just don't love the price. I have never had so much support from outside of P90 before. I love my family so much more and Greg. He sat with me while i cried and told him how stressed i was. He was so supportive to me and it brought us so close together. I don't know what I have been doing without the support of Greg, Family and Friends. I would be lost.

I'm just not happy right now. And I need to start making choices that will turn that around.