Diamonds On The Inside.

Tonight as I am working I realized there is a song on my ipod by Ben Harper called Diamonds on the inside. It inspired me to write this blog post this early morning.

We are all misunderstood at one point or another. A lot of folks find me very annoying, rude, judgemental, and even bitchy. Which yeah I may annoy you with my bold strong personality and the way I speak and the way I dress. But I wear diamonds on the inside. I believe I am perfect the way I am. That includes all of my flaws and all of my upsets. Especially when it comes to the passion that lives and breathes within my soul.

A lot of people are intimidated by my passion. Passion is a strong emotion that quite a few people take wrong. I notice that when I am really excited about something, people either draw towards me, or they flee. I have many many flaws. Don't get me wrong, but I do believe that my passion for life and people is one of my biggest strengths. I was asked a couple months ago, "Why are you so passionate about everything? It gets kind of annoying." I responded with I just am enjoying life.

As you grow older you learn more and more about who you really are and who you try to be and who you wanted to be. It's funny how people say to change your perspective it's like putting on a pair of glasses. Funny story. I just bought some new glasses. I love them. They look awesome. They are the typical Geek/Hipster black glasses. The frame my face well and bring out my personality very well. When I put the glasses on, I saw a new perspective. I love who I am. I have fought and fought that I am NOT a geek. Tried to be a girly girl, tried to be fashionista, but it has always been a challenge. I finally accepted that I am a geek. A nerd. A nerd who loves video games. I love the Rocky Horror Picture Show. I love my Kindle. I wear mismatching things. I wear shirts that offend. I will make funny jokes. I know my cars. I am the girl the guys like to have around. And you know what, putting those glasses on really made me realize I love me. I love who I am. And as soon as I accepted that fact, people look at me differently. People will turn their heads to see me! I orignially thought I had something on my face when greg turned to me and said nope, you just look amazing.

I guess my point is, I realize the people who love me for who I am are the best. They know my diamonds on the inside and they know to forgive my mistakes when they know it's out of character for me. I am one lucky girl who is blessed to be a part of this life and to live free. I love it. It's like that quote by Dr. Suess; "Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter."