Skydiving ♥

Arriving at the Outlook offices, my heart was beating fast, my legs were feeling like jello, I felt like throwing up might be the best option before walking in, but I resisted.

I walk in to the offices and immediately feel relief. I feel at peace with the decision I have decided to jump out of an airplane. I am going to face my fears. I am going to accomplish something that I will always remember for the rest of my life.

Talking with the group about things we are about to let go before we head to the site was actually a conversation I was dreading. I did not want to face the things about myself I want to let go and that I am scared of. I was not ok with this decision that I had to make.

We held a rock in our hand the entire time we were in the conversation. Representing things that we hang on to that prevent us from flying. Mine: Feeling Ashamed. Feeling worthless. Having expectations. I threw that rock on the ground and left it there so I could fly in the sky with my X-Trainer family.

We had lunch at this delicious pizza place.

We got to Ogden.

I almost peed myself.

walking into that red hangar really wasn't a challenge I stood tall and ran in so excited to take on an adventure that I will never forget.

I signed my life away.

put on my pink jumpsuit and funny hat. (speaking of which I just realized writing this, the pink jumpsuit I wore matches my skydiving bracelet I wear everyday. :) how adorable and sweet.)

I meet my dude.

He is so nice.

We head to the plane I wave goodbye to everyone waiting for me at the bottom.

The Plane takes off.

I shake so much.

He tells me that I will put my toes to the edge of the plane and he will roll out with me on his belly.

Bellybutton
Breathe
Banana.

I can do this.

I step out on the edge and I take one look down and feel immediate peace.

floating on a cloud with the pressure catching me and I can't hear a single thing. I am at peace. I feel amazing. invincible. I feel like superman. It will be an experience I will never want to forget.

The chute opens.

We do some gliding.

I land in smoothly on my bum.

I am so thrilled to become the new person that I am. I SPRINT to everyone waiting for me and give hugs and almost burst into tears. I am a new person. I am who I want to be. I want to be that person that can say they have been skydiving and they love it. I AM THAT PERSON.
The love I feel when I get off that plane was so beautiful. People all around me genuinely care about me. And it is something that I am forever grateful for.