Authentic Self

Being the fun loving person I am, I tend to be a little too forgiving, not set boundaries and just let people walk all over me. That is not how I want to keep doing things. Today I realized when I was on the phone with my coach, Curtis, that I have rid myself of at least, 5 people from my life with who I thought were my friends. They are not in my life anymore. No longer a part of my friendship circle. I have let them go.

Why?

I was evaluating this while on the phone, and I realized that I set boundaries for those 5 people. I set the boundary and the crossed the line and received the consequence of losing me in their life. They have chosen the path they wanted to take and they have now gone and done their own thing without a second though. I am living my authentic self. I am being true to who I am by setting those boundaries with friends.

They have decided that my true authentic self is not what they see a friend as.

I don't and will not sacrifice my awesome self for people who do not appreciate me. And I have done that. Funny that even one of those who I let go, went through Power 90 with me. And she has chosen to rescue everyone in her life and be tired for as long as she chooses. And I do not need to be rescued. And I am so proud of that. I am Alyssa Mae Smith. "Peanut", and tonight I can honestly say that I love who I am. Down to the ugly scar on my hip. I love every part of me, because I change lives.

The picture posted shows that even in a crowd of people, I can still be authentic when I think no one is watching. (ps, for those who haven't seen me in quite a while. *vickie* my hair is not like that anymore. Back to my usual beautiful brown hair :) )