So...

So I know I said I was going to start a new blog about a girl being in the funeral industry.... But that's going to have to be put on hold.... I am going to start a blog about my Disney experience in Florida.... I left the funeral home but accepted to join the Disney College Program! So I will be moving to Florida in August! So keep a look out for this new blog! :)

http://faithtrustandalittlepixiedustwithme.blogspot.com/

New Blog

Hey all! I just wanted to let you know I have a new blog that I have started if you want to follow just going through what I go through in the funeral industry and trying to get support! So check it out if you're interested, if not, it's cool! http://youngandseeingdeadpeople.blogspot.com/

Letting go.

Being able to let things go. It's a trial of mine. I was a part of Outlook Development and their team for quite some time. I really was active in changing lives and changing mine and then all of a sudden I got my dream job, and I slowed down in life to smell the flowers or to just enjoy life. Well, Outlook is speeding on by and doing things differently than I want to. And I was kind of left behind I guess was the word. I am doing great. I have no hard feelings just kind of sad that they are going way too fast. and once I got my dream job, i was "cured" and doing better. I have attempted to be a part of the clan again, but it just doesn't fit in with my work. My job and family come first. That's priority and if Outlook doesn't fit, it just doesn't fit. Anyway had to get that off my chest today. :)

Amazing body

I don't mean to brag about my body but our bodies are so amazing. I am loving working out. My body works so hard to be so tough. Breathing hard and pumping blood fast through my veins. This feeling is actually addicting. I'm loving taking care of my body. I have taken on the concept that everything I ingest has a soul. We are beings. Water coffee soda candy. Drugs alcohol they all have souls. And depending on what soul evil or good depends on what goes in my body to feed my soul. Sigh. This is one of the best things for me. Loving this. It's going to be hard but legen........ Dary!

Photography

I am no longer taking pictures for friends. I have had them either bail out on me, not show up, not pay me the full amount and take COMPLETE advantage me of me, sorry but I am not doing friends anymore.

I used to post on here a lot when things got bad. I really don't know why that was the only time I came on here, but recently I like coming on here now just to type things out. Good or bad! I forgot how much I actually like to blog etc. Today was an interesting day at work.

I am currently taking care of 4 families at one time. It can be stressful but I AM LOVING IT! Today I took care of a family of a little 6 month old. He is such a cutie. And such a little chunker. I love him so much and you can tell he brought so much life and love to his cute little family. This family is very timid but so sweet. I thought I may have a hard time taking care of this family, but surprisingly they have been my favorite family to take care of so far. Babies who have passed on are so hard on families, this little guy had only half a heart and they knew he would pass soon, but they said they were even lucky to get 6 months. When I help baby families like this I always like to sit back and ask myself how I would handle this situation if I was a mama, and honestly I don't know. I won't ever know till I give birth but even then I hope to never imagine burying my own child.

Anyway on a different note, my boss is so awesome. Brandon. He really is the best boss I have ever had. He is very down to Earth and his main goal with me is to teach me everything to help me as a director and even as a person. He also told me I remind him of his two daughters and ever since then I feel we have an awesome bond. He is someone I know I can ask for help and he won't be mad or anything like that. He is always there to help and his wife, such a sweetie. She treats me like family when I see her, Its so nice to have a boss finally that cares about me and is willing to help me achieve my dreams. I really love what's happening for me.

Today...

Today I have this sort of feeling as i'm getting ready for bed that I absolutely love. I am so proud of where I am. I am so proud of who I have become! 1 year ago I was a mess and messed into things I don't like and want to be a part of. Today I am who I can see raising children and having them look up to me. it's one of the coolest feelings.

One thing I'm not the happiest about it my weight. But as I look at myself today on the computer I realized something, this weight I have, This mass that has taken over me, I love. I love it because it has comforted me through the hard times I have been through over the course of a year. I don't really believe in new year's resolutions because I believe I can make a new one EVERY SINGLE DAY. How neat is that? Tomorrow is the day. I started a gym membership at work and they are going to give me a VIP membership to golds. Which means tanning, swimming, yoga, weights and a healthy Alyssa. I love who I am internally and I want to show that externally too. Yeah there are a lot of stresses in my life right now with money and school, but I really could not be happier with where I am.

I also had a thought today. A lot of people laugh at my love for Disney. My friends, my family, co-workers, Really anyone who I associate myself with. And today I LOVE that part of me. It is one of the most freeing things to be able to take pictures of my Vinylmations or to wear a mickey sweater or to sport my AMAZING simba tattoo in public. I am so proud I love Disney because it means I believe in my dreams. It means I know that I can do what I want and live this amazing life I am born to love. As i'm sitting here even i'm wearing 2 Disneyland bracelets my Little Mermaid T Shirt with my Simba tattoo in sight. even with my minnie mouse in my lap. and I'm just so thrilled to be able to show that I love Disney. Even if I am 23. Anyway I just had to write all these feelings down so I can look back and remember that it's ok. But really I need to do is look down at my wrist to remember who I am. Today I really am just so humbled and blessed. life is truly wonderful.