Today...

Today I have this sort of feeling as i'm getting ready for bed that I absolutely love. I am so proud of where I am. I am so proud of who I have become! 1 year ago I was a mess and messed into things I don't like and want to be a part of. Today I am who I can see raising children and having them look up to me. it's one of the coolest feelings.

One thing I'm not the happiest about it my weight. But as I look at myself today on the computer I realized something, this weight I have, This mass that has taken over me, I love. I love it because it has comforted me through the hard times I have been through over the course of a year. I don't really believe in new year's resolutions because I believe I can make a new one EVERY SINGLE DAY. How neat is that? Tomorrow is the day. I started a gym membership at work and they are going to give me a VIP membership to golds. Which means tanning, swimming, yoga, weights and a healthy Alyssa. I love who I am internally and I want to show that externally too. Yeah there are a lot of stresses in my life right now with money and school, but I really could not be happier with where I am.

I also had a thought today. A lot of people laugh at my love for Disney. My friends, my family, co-workers, Really anyone who I associate myself with. And today I LOVE that part of me. It is one of the most freeing things to be able to take pictures of my Vinylmations or to wear a mickey sweater or to sport my AMAZING simba tattoo in public. I am so proud I love Disney because it means I believe in my dreams. It means I know that I can do what I want and live this amazing life I am born to love. As i'm sitting here even i'm wearing 2 Disneyland bracelets my Little Mermaid T Shirt with my Simba tattoo in sight. even with my minnie mouse in my lap. and I'm just so thrilled to be able to show that I love Disney. Even if I am 23. Anyway I just had to write all these feelings down so I can look back and remember that it's ok. But really I need to do is look down at my wrist to remember who I am. Today I really am just so humbled and blessed. life is truly wonderful.