Random thoughts.

People have a really hard time keeping promises. Either fear, resentment, anger or sadness hold them back from what their potential could be. Saying what you promise to do and following through with it is a small thing that can be a huge difference in a relationship. I have encountered friends and people in my life who had said they would do something for me or would show up somewhere or would even text me to let me know about something important who do not follow through. It is something that is a pet peeve of mine. "Say what you're going to do, then do what you said you would do." It is something I have tried to live by for the last year. It's a motto I believe is strong and stands firm as to what people should do.

Understandably and reasonably, things do come up. Accidents, emergencies etc. But letting the person know of such events is something that can help with that. Following through is one reason why I'm so paticular about my friends and why I don't have very many. Most of the friends I have had don't follow through on what they said they would do for me or even in life. Someone who has such character is someone I don't trust. Reasons why I have major trust issues when keeping friends. I only allow certain people close to my heart. Those who know how close they are to my heart can feel the warmth and beat of it.

It's been a hard week. Yet rewarding at the same time. I'm grateful for the trials we all have to go through. They may be tough, but we really don't know what God has in his plan for us. I know God is a topic that can be touchy, but it really is true. He has a set plan and trials and tribulations for us each to go through that build us up and create a character in us that is unbreakable. I have and am going through what I'm going through because God has a plan for me to be stronger than I am today. It's a powerful concept and not easily grasped for me at all times. It really puts things in perspective when I find myself starting to judge someone. "You don't know what trials I have put her through." - God. How strong is that? I mean to think that we aren't the only people that go through such things?

Passion is something in me that is really natural something that I just have and always have had even as a small child. My mom really is the reason for that passion that burns inside me. She is the one that has built me up to be the beautiful person I am. And every single day I know I make her proud. that is a gift. To truly know that you are making your own mother proud. she is someone I will always and forever have in my life. thanks to her, I am passionate and caring for people and more importantly myself.

My horoscope was realy interesting today: You have grown mistrustful of someone youused to trust and respect. This person has done something that wounded you, and you are having a hard time seeing this indvidual in the smae warm light y ou once did. This is a case of miscommunication, Moonchild. You probably don't fully understand what caused your loved one to do what was done. There is something from this person's past that led him or her to treat you in a certain way, but it was really out of love and out of a desire to protect you. Be open-minded and try to forgive- it will be well worth the effort.

That is eerily perfect for me right now. Someone has mistrusted me. They have decided running is best. and have failed to follow through. Doing what they said they would do is something that is not in their vocabulary. unfortunately. The one down fall that I have is wearing my heart literally on my sleeve and letting things go. I'm a supporter. I care too much about people and forget to take care of myself and that is what I am failing to do right now. I need to let the water roll off my back and forget what they have done. I also heard a cool quote tonight :